Jumping Off The Verrazano Bridge

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So, I am almost coming up on my two month anniversary being here in Poland. Today, while talking on Skype, my mother reflected on how me getting on that plane back in November was like jumping off the Verrazano Bridge. I mean, I was getting on a plane, and flying, kamikaze style, into an unknown location, without anything or anyone waiting for me when I landed.

When I talk to locals about where I come from, most can’t comprehend me. They don’t understand when I tell them that I packed everything I own into two suitcases and flew into a place completely unknown to me all the way from New York City. Some quietly think that I’ve lost my mind. Especially when they learn that I came to Gdansk without a place to live, friends to crash with or family to stay with. And, though the locals are very nice to me, the minute they hear that I come from the USA, they get very suspicious. Clearly, something major had to happen in order for me to just pick up and leave like that. Why leave NYC, the big Metropolis for small, in comparison, town of Gdansk?

I often hear: Oh, dear, did you suffer from a broken heart and needed to move very, very far? Or...darn, honey, maybe you killed someone? Are they looking for you? Or...oh, I know it! You came after a man you fell in love with while vacationing here! Ahem, I chuckle. Apparently, I am the one that is having the most fun with this. I simply smile and say, no not really, none of those things, I just fell like flying off the proverbial Verrazano bridge. Is there something wrong with that? Then I hear, not at all, but why did you land in Gdansk? My retort: my dear, when you jump off a bridge you don’t ask questions...

Let It Snow

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Today the city of Gdansk looks like an excerpt from a Hans Christian Andersen novel. Falling in light, white flakes, bit by bit, ice crystals are covering the streets and age-old buildings. But this snow is different than the one I know from New York City. This particular snow is on a mission. It is a predetermined calling that says, I will turn this city into a magical, little town that it’s meant to be in a dead of winter. I will enhance the landscapes of the ruins by painting its tops with frozen, white fluff. I will put a white blanket over everything to hide any imperfections. On this very day, I will frost-white senseless!

Last night, when I walked around the streets of Gdansk, I was in awe of how beautiful the city is at night during the winter. Contemplatively, I admired how the delicate veil of white snow, and dim street lamps accentuated the ancient, brick stone edifices. Massive churches tucked inside narrow streets, standing proud as the oldest buildings. I must admit, there is something mystical about walking into a tight corridor, lined with worn out cobble stones, brushing up against a thousand year old wall. It always gets me thinking; how many fingers have brushed up against that wall in the past centuries? What had happened in the dark alleys of these streets? What were the people like? What did they wear on a freezing, wintery night? What did they look like? Were they joyful?

Today, the snow decided to take it up a notch. It is now diligently covering the perimeters of the city in an abundant layer of white, heavenly substance. It’s as if though God was saying: “I am charge, I say when it’s going to be truly white. Get out your snow boots, your hats, your gloves and be ready. I have painted the world white. And there is nothing you can do about it.”

I say, let it snow...

You Can't Rush Caramel

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Someone recently told me that home made caramel is tricky to make. Specifically, caramel has to be cooked on low heat until it forms the right consistency, otherwise it will crack. A recipe I found on the internet states: “Make sure the sugar is completely dissolved in the water before the mixture boils; stray granules will turn your caramel gritty.” I couldn’t help but make an analogy to the process of making caramel resembling new relationships. The sugar, in this case love, has to be completely dissolved in water, as in a new way of life. Otherwise stray granules will form and turn caramel gritty, just like unresolved issues will soil a new relationship. Making caramel is like forming a new relationship, it takes time.

Once again, my cinematic persona is traveling along corridors of my earlier movie rental alleys. I am thinking about a movie titled “Caramel”. The plot takes place in a small beauty salon in Beirut where a young hairdresser falls is love with someone completely inappropriate. The movie circles around that particular beauty shop where home-made, hot caramel is used as a beauty treatment. Amber in color, mellow and sweet, it almost resembles the delicate personality of the main character. The sticky syrup, used in Lebanon as a waxing product, sometimes brings pain. Interestingly, so does love. But not always. Though the young woman eventually gets rejected and consequently hurt, soon she discovers that fate had something better in store for her. One sunny day, when she least expects it, she looks out the window, and sees the man she’s been waiting for, and falls in love.

Caramel, the movie. 

You can’t rush caramel, you can't rush love... ;-)